A throwback version of Backstreet Boys’, 🎶“…but my love is all I have to give. without you I don’t think I can live!” 🎶 was being played in the t.v. as I turn it on. Suddenly, a nostalgic feeling from the past came crawling in to my head. haha.
Oh, those innocent high school days! Where did it go? It has been more than a decade a young petite girl anxiously trying to figure out what life is going to be in the future. Impatiently wishing to grow up so fast that she may finally find her “knight and shining armor”.
As I hear the last few lyrics before the song ends, funny to remember the guy who I can say inspired my going to school and (ohh well!) reasons of my failing grades and all. haha. Made me a lot of use of daydreams about him and all. Ohh! As the Backstreet Boys were such a major hit during that time, I used to think that he is my Nick Carter with the blonde (because probably he used artificial hair color) and neatly combed (semi-long) hair.
I giggle as I write this article as a picture of him in my mind almost makes me laugh. But during those childhood memories, he was the coolest guy ever. haha. And I was broken-hearted. My first broken heart 💔.
We were so childishly happy that we actually became a couple. Well, not seriously. But for me, I don’t want that feeling to end. It was sooo.. sooo.. feels like a grown up.
It actually is funny that when we are younger, we base our relationships on songs and its meanings. That if it made us join the bit, this should also be the guideline of our relationship. As we grow older, we realize that love (or life in general) is not at all about a simple meaning of a song.
As we grow older, we realize that there are a lot more important manuscripts that we need to know by heart. That as we grow older, we need a daily dose of it. It is the source of our strength when we feel our lowest. It is the shield that will protect us. This force is more than the power of the song that gives us chills everytime we hear it when we were wild teens.
This is our faith. Our belief of the true God and His power over the world. All of its hidden secrets are in the greatest manuscript ever told, it is the Holy Bible.