Songhits

A throwback version of Backstreet Boys’, 🎶…but my love is all I have to give. without you I don’t think I can live!🎶 was being played in the t.v. as I turn it on. Suddenly, a nostalgic feeling from the past came crawling in to my head. haha.

Oh, those innocent high school days! Where did it go? It has been more than a decade a young petite girl anxiously trying to figure out what life is going to be in the future. Impatiently wishing to grow up so fast that she may finally find her “knight and shining armor”.

As I hear the last few lyrics before the song ends, funny to remember the guy who I can say inspired my going to school and (ohh well!) reasons of my failing grades and all. haha. Made me a lot of use of daydreams about him and all. Ohh! o_O As the Backstreet Boys were such a major hit during that time, I used to think that he is my Nick Carter with the blonde (because probably he used artificial hair color) and neatly combed (semi-long) hair.

I giggle as I write this article as a picture of him in my mind almost makes me laugh. But during those childhood memories, he was the coolest guy ever. haha. And I was broken-hearted. My first broken heart 💔.

We were so childishly happy that we actually became a couple. Well, not seriously. But for me, I don’t want that feeling to end. It was sooo.. sooo.. feels like a grown up.

It actually is funny that when we are younger, we base our relationships on songs and its meanings. That if it made us join the bit, this should also be the guideline of our relationship. As we grow older, we realize that love (or life in general) is not at all about a simple meaning of a song.

As we grow older, we realize that there are a lot more important manuscripts that we need to know by heart. That as we grow older, we need a daily dose of it. It is the source of our strength when we feel our lowest. It is the shield that will protect us. This force is more than the power of the song that gives us chills everytime we hear it when we were wild teens.

This is our faith. Our belief of the true God and His power over the world. All of its hidden secrets are in the greatest manuscript ever told, it is the Holy Bible.

Seven Things I Believe In Every Morning

Seventh

I believe that my prayer last night was effective.

Sixth

I believe that coffee will wake me up.

Fifth

I believe that meditation removes stress.

Fourth

I believe on this – “what goes around, comes around”.

Third

I believe that soulmates really exists.

Second

I believe that I have at least one guardian angel.

First

I believe that in the near future, something great will happen.

Planning Ahead

I used to envy people with the potential to smoothly take charge of their life. Well, they are either leaders or managers of their company anyway. They start with a goal and then step by step direct their plans in order to reach that goal. Being able to do this and distinguish the road blocks along the way is undeniably an admirable attitude towards life. Ain’t that a God-given talent or what?

When I was younger I used to plan out everything, as I wanted to be like the leaders who inspires me, from my day’s activities up to how I would like to end my week. Hey, I want to take charge of my life. I ended up feeling tired and frustrated.

Planning ahead never worked for me.

I realized, God have plans in my life to help me get to the path I am supposed to go to. I once watched this movie years ago, A Walk to Remember, and this quote has been stuck in my mind since then.

“God has a bigger plan for me than I have for myself. Like this journey never ends.” Jamie Sullivan, A Walk to Remember

Through all these years, He holds my path. So I decided (what the heck!) might as well follow where He leads. Planning has never been a good ingredient in my life but I know I still need to do something and not just wait for my fate to come by.

Then there is VISION. My mother used to say, “see yourself what you want to be at age 30 and that you will be when you’re on that age”. Only 14 or 15 years old at that time I did not take that seriously, but I made a vision. You know what, I got that vision, probably, years earlier. Although, unconsciously, I practiced to always perceive what I want to be doing in the next 10 years of my life. Although there are times I feel in doubt to reach that vision, I still hold into it and I think this is what they call FAITH. I try to hang on that, everytime.

I always have plan B or even C since plan A is already in front of me. Plan A is my PRESENT. If “present” didn’t work out, I try my best to take the next best option and tell myself that it probably wasn’t meant for me. I call it ACCEPTANCE. I get frustrated at times when the first plan never materialize but then the voice inside of me keeps on saying that there is always a better option and that, the best option was the one I’m supposed to be doing.

Sometimes what WE THINK we want differs on what WE REALLY want. We think “what we want” are the situations that will define our life, but what we forget are the hidden desires of our heart. The petition that only you and God talked about. These desires and secret dreams will materialize when we are ready, and the REAPER knows exactly when the fruit is ripe.

“The will of God is not something you add to your life. It’s a course you choose. You either line yourself up with the Son of God…or you capitulate to the principle which governs the rest of the world.”  Elisabeth Elliot