Jane Austin’s Sense and Sensibility

I didn’t realize I will be crying a bucket on this movie. The first time I watched it with my husband, I literally fell asleep.

I got so much emotions going around the characters of Col. Brandon and Marianne, Ms. Dashwood and Edward Ferris.

Col. Brandon being the invisible man. The guy who is always there, who can be a friend but his favors are not really returned. Although in the end, his persistence have gain her the love of Marianne. Give me some tissue please.😭

I was also touched how tough Ms. Dashwood is with controlling her emotions after learning that Edward is already engaged for five years with another woman. Eventhough heartbroken, she still wished them both well.

Concealing her heartbreak, Ms. Dashwood is trying to be strong for her sister, while the latter as well is ill from a heartbreak.

I dont know the magic of Jane Austin’s films with me. It just gives me a connection; an old connection I had. Well, the connection the younger me had with her husband.

Miss you today, min skat.

Heaven Indeed Gained Another Angel

Thank you for touching my life, Ms. Veronica.

In 2010, we never had the chance to work directly in Maersk. But when the news of my marriage to Allan got around, you reached out thru Lync (that was our skype before) and told me that I made the right decision of marrying him because he is a good man who loves his mother very much (with Filipino women, that is a good sign of being a good person); that you know Allan and you are close friends for a long time. I deeply appreciate that message of assurance.

With that short conversation, you are such an angel for doing that. And you are right! I am always grateful to the Big Guy up there for always keeping me surrounded with beautiful souls such as yours and my husband.

Your life filled with love will always echo through all your friends and families’ hearts even after you are gone. ’til we meet again, madam V.

Heaven gained another angel, dear. I know with your glowing aura and good heart, all the angels will keep you safe and happy up there.

PS. If not too much to ask, if ever you meet my husband, please hug him for me.

Rush Hour

As I squeeze myself inside the crowd and find myself a comfortable seat, I couldn’t help but overhear a boy with his little sister and mother also trying to fit inside the bus.

Luckily, someone was kind enough to offer a seat to the mother and the sister but not for the little boy.

As he complained for almost half the trip saying that his feet are so tired to stand up and that he’s so sleepy. I couldn’t blame him as he is telling the truth. It is indeed a long traffic jam on a rush hour.

As we pass along the stretch of España Blvd. with the universities and schools on the view, the boy said, “gusto ko mag-aral dyan mama paglaki ko!”. His mom just smirked and said, “hmp, ang mahal, mahal dyan”.

And the rest of the trip the little boy continuously complain.

It’s just so nice to hear such innocent words from children. With their innocence come sincerity and our old dreams. As adults we are so overwhelmed with making money in order to live and we forget the kid screaming and knocking in our hearts, as if wanted to remind us of our forgotten dreams and simple wishes.

From Lumiere’s words (B&B)

“Even a broken clock is right two times a day. But this is not one of those times.” Lumiere of Beauty and the Beast

This quote was stuck in my head after watching the classic fairytale, Beauty and the Beast. It was spoken by Lumiere, the cursed candle light.

Did my ears catch it because it is relevant into my life’s current happenings? No. It was stuck inside my head for a simple reason – my brains wanted to play this kind of interpreting double meaning phrases like that quote above. Yes, this tiny muscle in my head is probably bored while I was in the movie house.

But seriously, nothing is a mistake in life. May it be a good or bad experience, it forms part of the plot for what’s in store in the future.

Like the pain you feel when you are broken hearted. Or like when Belle’s father got lost in the forest and got imprisoned by the beast. Everything in this world is planned. Even in the bible it says there, God knows when the leaves will fall out of the tree or even the number of the strands of our hair, He knows so well.

The Story of Longing

You might think that the worst had passed for me.

And that I am already living the best that life can offer. But as the months, years and days pass the longing and wanting keeps on growing inside.

Behind this funny face and hilarious humor I can play is the other side of me that I dont want people to see.

That every smile I give out to everyone is creating a hole in my heart. The truth that this happiness will never be seen by you. 

Not a chance. Not in this lifetime.

That each story I tell everyone is equal to my heart’s desire to tell to it to only you.

That every blink my eyes make, is my heart’s wish to bring you back.

But reality is always there forever checking if I have started to stand up again. I wish that time will come where life and me will realize that they should actually best friends.

This exactly

Kung puwede lang sana I had five more days, five more years… five more lifetimes with him”; “You may have loved him longer but that doesn’t mean I loved him less”;

“Ayoko, kasi masyado mo akong pinapasaya nakakalimutan ko siya”;

“Ang haba pa ng buhay ko but I’d already lost that one person worth living for”;

“Pagod na kong maging malungkot, ang hirap namang maging masaya kasi nananakit ka ng ibang tao”

Gusto ko magmahal ulit pero paano ko gagawin ‘yun kung sa puso ko buhay na buhay ka pa.”

Movie: And I Love You So