The Perfect Description of Love

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 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

Reading the Bible once in a while may not seem to change my life. The irony is that, it did! Without me noticing it. Same as prayer, it gave me hope, strength, courage, faith and as the scripture goes….. it also gave me love.

The Bible wants us to distinguish “true love” from any other form of “love” such as lust, envy, greed and selfishness. The Lord wanted us to give love to others with a pure selfless act. It may not only describe the love with our partners, but also with our fellowmen and those who are oppressed, hopeless and depressed.

This is one of my most favorite writings from the Holy Bible as the Lord basically wants us to know that LOVE is what makes the world go round and that it is the greatest power of all.

This force can either stir us to good when the love is accepted and nourished selflessly but can bring us hatred when it is taken from us.

The miracle does not come until you believe in the power of this superb book.

Pretensions and Broken Lies

“Most people do not listen with the intent to understand; they listen with the intent to reply.” Stephen R. Covey

You always wanted people’s attention to be on you. Aren’t you getting tired with that? Keeping secrets as if everyone’s dumb. In reality, everybody’s reading your whole story through your actions. Or if everyone’s really dumb, at least you cannot convince me with lies. Stop all the pretensions, aren’t you getting tired with all the stories you make up.

Are you really a friend or a stranger I’ve known from afar? You fill me with lies day in and day out, it’s hard to comprehend sometimes. You expect me to believe, oh it’s hard to hide the arrogance. You’re building your dreams with me on the picture but that is not what I am hearing when I am not on the scene.

I don’t know until when will I be able to live with you like this, always pretending, as if everything’s just fine. This is not the life I am used to living. This is not the life I have loved. I am waiting, I’m impatiently waiting for that day to come, to finally experience freedom from you so you can try to convince others of your broken lies.

I am tired of this one sided relationship, will you please hear me out just once and stop your broken lies.

My Subject on Longing

My life is a summary of longing. As it is with longing that i feel the importance of even the small things. It gives me the euphoric feeling of happiness at the same time keeping my sanity. It is the simplified science of two forces, push and pull. It is when we “push” that we experience a never-ending feeling of completeness, happiness or even love. It is when we let ourselves drag us in the direction of “pull” that it reminds us that the feelings we feel are only temporary.

It may be about a series of happy moments with your friends sharing unending stories and laughs not realizing it has to end at some point. At that moment, we each try to hold on but as we try harder, the stories start to get boring. And we eventually retreat and let that special moment be. We accept that it is now part of our memory.

It may also be about the relationship with our partners. We are so in love at the moment that during the whole romance you feel that you are so lucky to experience such a wonderful feeling no one ever felt. At some point, the other party needs to leave. It may either be of a new found love, sickness or death. As hard as you try sometimes to save the relationship, there is nothing more you can do but to let the other person go. You accept that it is now part of your memory.

Same as the most constant force on earth, CHANGE is the ultimate equalizer of happiness and sadness. There are moments in life that was so perfect that continuing to live in it may spoil its perfection. Moments that are meant to end when the best part is coming. Some people may attempt to rekindle this “PERFECT MOMENT” unfortunately trying their whole life to exceed it. Wasting their life in the end, living with regrets instead of cherishing the moment.

With longing, it means the end of a story, a relationship and a memorable event. The end of a sweet beginning, the end of something special. On the other hand, it also means the beginning. The start of a new chapter. The author knows when to stop writing as well as a director knows when to say “cut”.

These are the moments in life wherein we should be satisfied looking only from afar and thanking God for the experience while praying harder to give you strength to move forward armed with that perfect moment that inspires your future.

This is my subject about longing.

“If some longing goes unmet, don’t be astonished. We call that life.” Anna Freud

The Power of Prayer

We are living in the world full of mysteries and miracles. This I believe. Powers and extraordinary abilities of that sort. It happens everyday that we see them as normal events when in fact every small breath we take is already a miracle. As humans, we make ourselves believe that we do not own powers and feel as if we are not worthy to experience miracles.

The power of prayer moves us in a way we do not see. The way to the path we are destined to be in. The forces that guides us here because of the people in our lives who continue to include us in their prayers. The people who loves us even if we are not around. It is through their prayers that we are saved from harm. Through them we are renewing our strength everyday. Through them we are not giving up with life. Through them we receive our small miracles.

When we lose courage to say a short one, we can count on the people who pray for us; care for us. They may be our parents, our friends or our mentors. They can even be the person we least expect to be.

Through prayer we are confirming our faith to the most powerful force on earth. The God who never fail to see us in time of our need. The sender of our guardian angel. The God who is a great listener to our heart’s wishes.

Prayer can move mountains and it indeed can one small miracle at a time. With everyone praying for each other, nothing is impossible.

Where am I heading?

It has been months since I went back on asking myself the same question.

“Where am I heading?”

It’s been four years since my husband died and through all the ups and downs of my life I feel like I landed to where I actually started — LOST.

Yes. My husband died few years ago. It would seem as if after he died, my life needed a tune up. Nope. I don’t think I need a res-et button to bring back the life I had but rather, a NEW LIFE moving forward.

There are several times when I feel I can reach every bit of my dream and that as if the power of determination has finally come my way. Truly, nothing can stop me from achieving everything I want to do in my life. All the road signs are heading towards where I lead them to and luck has finally came my way.

Aligned with my UPS, are my DOWNS. These feelings are the gravity that pulls me down from dreamland. The ones making me realize that all the hopes and dreams I planned carefully for the rest of my life is a hoax. Reaching it could be like a needle in a hay.

It could sometimes be frustrating. Seeing myself on top of the ladder at one point and watching myself fall from it on the next step.

“Life is like a piano. White keys represent happiness and black keys represent sadness. But as you go through life you must remember, black keys make music too.” – Ehssan

The Old Place I Longed to Go Back To

I am here. Back to where I started.

But why do I feel empty. Isn’t this my soul’s wish?

To one day see the world and then return to what I call home.

The sad part is that, the place you want to return to is not the same anymore..

It has evolved the same time you have left it, without skipping a heart bit.

It has changed a lot since the last time you lay eyes on the old place.

This time you are thinking if you can still live in here anymore.

Or the life you once despised — you are now accustomed to and want to go back in reverse.

Now, everytime you close your eyes, you dream of being in the world where you have left.

And the life you once longed to always go back to, seems like a far away dream as you come close to it.

…and then I decided to follow Jesus

I decided to follow Jesus!

This Sunday’s gospel was good. But what caught my attention was when the priest started singing on his beautiful African voice, “I decided to follow Jesus”. Then it became my last song syndrome.

It was a short phrase but a pretty powerful one. It never left my mind after that sunny Sunday mass.

What does that short phrase mean, anyway, that it affected me so much? I even felt that this short phrase is a calling

Of all the things that happened in my life, it could probably mean one of the following:

  • a hello from the Lord saying that He is will always here watching over me.
  • He is talking to me telling me that my dear husband is beside Him solemnly happy hanging out with the angels.
  • a knock knock from the door saying there is another door that needs to be opened.
  • my alarm clock to wake me up reminding me that its exactly the right time to go out and show the world that I am ready!

Well, whatever that message was. I still believe that it was intended to be received by the recipient and that’s me. No matter what the message is, as I move forward in life, I will slowly find the meaning He so want to send me.

Come to think of it, there might not be a hidden message after all. How about just plainly deciding to follow Jesus with no doubt.